what i should of said v.2

Heregoesnothin

Your piercing eyes ate me up until there was nothing left

And I hate you for it

Hate is just a word kind of like this…

“Note To You I Hate You Terribly
This Is Not A Damn Tradgedy
Back Away From Me Away From Me
From Me [ha-ha yeah]”

Why,maybe it’s the ways you’ve threatened to kick my ass

Or just to get a rise outta me when I get real angry

before that I used to love and adore you

But using me wont get you places

Just like that one guy you had your eyes on for the longest time

so I stand here screaming

“L-o-v-e's just another word I never learned to pronounce”

I sit and stare forever and a year and ask myself why?

Why should I even waste my time wondering why you did what you did

It was funny how I just stood there and took so much of your sh#@

It ate me like acid

skin

leads down to the beating of a drum

with no soul left to wander

It felt like you left me crazy and broken

Crazy

Is what I thought I lost my mind to

Broken

This Is what I should be feeling like


Some scars are easier to heal than most

Remember the ones you found lying on my body

Leaving crimson red tears

That never stop flowing

And now I’m begging myself to stop

But yours are the worst

I have so much left to say

I’ll take every word you said

And throw them in your face…







Lyrics from my boys of:

Note to you By: Dot Dot Curve :)
Starstrukk by: 3oh!3

what i should of said

Note To You

You ate me up Until there was nothing left

And I hate you for it

Hate is just a word kinda like this…

“Note To You I Hate You Terribly

This Is Not A Damn Tradgedy

Back Away From Me Away From Me

From Me [hahaha yeah]”

Why,maybe it’s the ways you’ve threatened to kick my ass

Or just to get a rise outta me when I get real angry

before that I used to love and adore you

But you used me just cause someone wasn’t paying attention to you cause

they didn’t love you back the way I did

“L-o-v-e's just another word I never learned to pronounce”

I sit and stare forever and a year and ask myself why?

It was funny how I just stod there and took so much of your shit

It ate me like acid

Bite

After

Bite

It felt like you left me crazy and broken

Some scars are easier to heal than most

But yours are the worst

I have so much left to say

I’ll take every word you said

And throw them in your face

Would you even care?

Just rember your words suffocate me




Lyrics from my boys of:

Note to you By: Dot Dot Curve :)
Starstrukk by: 3oh!3

cold [but your sill here]

She Mourns A Lengthening Shadow

Warped into a time frame that I just can’t get out of
Lost, confused, these uncontrolable feelings get me at last
Not gazing at the world for unlost time
I just sit and stare in wonder of my new surroundings
Will fate ever come my way or will it go to the next frame
The frame of my fate
This like I stand on will decide what’s best
Turn the lights off I don’t want to see myself doing this
And maybe this time I can do it right
But who or what is going to do it right?
The man next to me with so much life
His brown eyes told me everything
I envy him for what is in store for me
As I look to the left
Theres a demon from my past
The one that I fear
The best sppeaks to me in tounges
Taking ahold of my throat
Run
So fast down the road
Until there is no end
But my lungs give out
Cry
I do not
Crying was the last thought on my mind
But to battle these needy demonds
I have to be strong,strong without fear
Why I say
Why you say?
I just can’t bear another second of it
Stop
Is what I can not
Why?
Is my question

re-do on the ten minute play

After the rain

[Realizing his fiancé’s death, mike suddenly realizes what his meaning in the world is. But trying to find his answers in life aren’t easy to find is difficult places.]

[Playing say goodnight by: Bullet for my valentine]

Mike

[Talking in his thoughts about what happened]

Today was the day I knew my life a just positively absolutely ended...I wasen't sure on how things ended for her but i knew it wasn't going to be a good one.

Priest

We are gathered here to say farewell to Olivia Miller and to commit her into the hands of God.

Mike

I always hated going to church for things like this, it just upsets me knowing that I’m bad at saying my last goodbyes to people I’m close with for half of my life.

Priest

[Opens the bible]Please rise…..In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit...

Mike

I mean the thought of her lying down and the face looking so pale and warn I knew she shouldn’t have drunk that night. But that was my choice to let my girl to go out and get drunk little did I know she had an accident planed later that night.

Mike

[Staring down at the ground letting his thoughts consume him, while the rain is pouring while he's on the podium]

I just couldn’t get things quite right I felt like such a failure for letting me do that to my poor dear Olivia rember back when the both of us were so young and didn’t give a care in the world.

Priest

[Puts bits of dirt into the casket,while others gather around]

In the Name of God, the merciful Father, we commit the body of OM to the peace of the grave. God, our Father, we entrust OM into your hands


Mike
[Walks up onto the platform to give his speech to friends and family]

Hello my fellow friends and family,This was a fast situation that I found myself in a few months ago following my fiancé’s death.She was a kind and sweet person, when we first met was in my freshman year,Of college we took this ridiculous class. And I couldn’t just forget the many other memories that we shared. I was reading some her notes the other day and she had plans of becoming a doctor, I held myself from tears…..

Priest

[Puts flower onto of casket]

Our Father in heaven, we thank you that, through Jesus Christ, you have given us the gift of eternal life. Keep us firm in the faith, that nothing can separate us from your love. When we lose someone who is dear to us, help us to receive your comfort and to share it with one another.
us pray…..

Mike

I just stood there a bowed my head as they prayed for losing a special person, whom I’ll never, forget. But I was thinking what flowers Olivia loved, remember her saying I love roses they remind me of everlasting love as she took my hand.

[Bullet for my valentine slowly fading]

[Moonlight Sonata fades in]

Mike

Hell it was like anyone’s American dream to marry the one you love and cherish forever, I mean what does this all mean any way we live we breath we die? Death wasn’t in my option of living of human lives they say a human life doesn’t last forever just live it to the fullest.

[The moving of the casket pulls down Mike slowly throws the roses into the casket,And let’s the ground consume the rest of Olivia’s life while the rest of the dirt fills the hole]

Priest

God, we thank you for the life that you give us. It is full of work and of responsibility, of sorrow and joy Today we thank you for OM, for what she has given and received. Help us in our mourning and teach us to live for the living in the time that is still left to us. Thank you for eternal life that can give light and joy to our days and years already here on earth…Amen.

Mike

”I don't know about angels, but its fear that gives men wings.”-Max Payne
On that very cold Wednesday I felt dead inside I couldn’t replace those feelings and how to cope with them were way to strong for me to handle with but you know…..MikeAnd now I was going to kill her - the queen of the underworld who had tried to lift her a bit closer to heaven with her sweet voice. No begging, no bribes. She knew better. Honor among killers, both of us knew how this would end: in pain and suffering. Of that very day she didn’t die of a car crash I was on was too much methamphetamines for myself to keep account of, my demons came back to haunt me forever and ever….


Mike

[Hands over face crying]

God only know what a mess I have made and the blood that is still on my hands for killing this pretty thing of a woman. I don’t know what got my nerve to do such things, its crazy I know...

[Into the questioning room before the funeral months before]

Mike

[Raises from his seat yelling]

Oh please god let me go! Please I beg of you…!

Officer Randy

Why did you do it mike? That’s my question and I want some gotdamn answer from you NOW!

Mike

[Spits on Randy's face]

Who the hell are you to judge? I called my dealer for some stuff and he gladly came and I paid for it. Then I started getting real nasty with Olivia probably because she wouldn’t do something for me or whatever it was…..

Officer

[Shoves his face into mikes crying bleeding face]

That’s what you think when I was looking at the body of your long-term girlfriend i came across some disturbing things, and you were doped up enough to kill her with your child?! What kind of a monster are you anyways….

Mike

Hey man [stumbles] you don’t know who I am or what my business is, but you sure aren’t getting into my business…

[Officer Buts into the conversation]

Officer Randy

Your business your own bloody BUSINESS!! That was your kid for Christ sake and you could care or give a damn less about what others are giving to you.

Mike

[slames his hands onto the desk]

Why the hell would you care anyway?

my ten minute play...

After the rain

[Realizing his fiancé’s death, mike suddenly realizes what his meaning in the world is.
But trying to find his answers in life aren’t easy to find is difficult places.]

Mike
[Playing say goodnight By: Bullet for my valentine]
Today was the day I knew my life a just positively absolutely ended. But I wouldn’t be to sure on how my Girlfriend of a year 1/2 was soon to be fiancé’s felt being put in a casket the rest of her life…

Priest
We are gathered here to say farewell to Olivia Miller and to commit her into the hands of God.

Mike
I always hated going to church for things like this, it just upsets me knowing that I’m bad at saying my last goodbyes to people I’m close with for half of my life.

Priest
[Opens the bible]
Please rise…..In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit...

Mike
I mean the thought of her lying down and the face looking so pale and warn I knew she shouldn’t have drunk that night. But that was my choice to let my girl to go out and get drunk little did I know she had an accident planed later that night.




Mike
[Staring down at the ground letting his thoughts consume him, while the rain is pouring]
I just couldn’t get things quite right I felt like such a failure for letting me do that to my poor dear Olivia rember back when the both of us were so young and didn’t give a care in the world.

Priest
[Puts bits of dirt into the casket]
In the Name of God, the merciful Father, we commit the body of OM to the peace of the grave. God, our Father, we entrust OM into your hands

Mike
[Walks up onto the platform to give his speech]
Hello my fellow friends and family,
This was a fast situation that I found myself in a few months ago following my fiancé’s death.
She was a kind and sweet person, when we first met was in my freshman year,
Of college we took this ridiculous class. And I couldn’t just forget the many other memories that we shared. I was reading some her notes the other day and she had plans of becoming a doctor, I held myself from tears…..


Priest
[Puts flower onto of casket]

Our Father in heaven, we thank you that, through Jesus Christ, you have given us the gift of eternal life. Keep us firm in the faith, that nothing can separate us from your love. When we lose someone who is dear to us, help us to receive your comfort and to share it with one another.




Priest

Let us pray…..



Mike

I just stood there a bowed my head as they prayed for losing a special person, whom I’ll never, forget. But I was thinking what flowers Olivia loved, remember her saying I love roses they remind me of everlasting love as she took my hand.


[Bullet for my valentine slowly fading]
[Moonlight Sonata fades in]


Mike
Hell it was like anyone’s American dream to marry the one you love and cherish forever, I mean what does this all mean any way we live we breath we die? Death wasn’t in my option of living of human lives they say a human life doesn’t last forever just live it to the fullest.



[The moving of the casket pulls down mike slowly throws the roses into the casket,
And let’s the ground consume the rest of Olivia’s life while the rest of the dirt fills the hole]


Priest


God, we thank you for the life that you give us. It is full of work and of responsibility, of sorrow and joy Today we thank you for OM, for what she has given and received. Help us in our mourning and teach us to live for the living in the time that is still left to us. Thank you for eternal life that can give light and joy to our days and years already here on earth…Amen.


Mike
”I don't know about angels, but its fear that gives men wings.”-max Payne

Mike
On that very cold Wednesday I felt dead inside I couldn’t replace those feelings and how to cope with them were way to strong for me to handle with but you know…..
Mike
And now I was going to kill her - the queen of the underworld who had tried to lift her a bit closer to heaven with her sweet voice. No begging, no bribes. She knew better. Honor among killers, both of us knew how this would end: in pain and suffering. Of that very day she didn’t die of a car crash I was on was too much methamphetamines for myself to keep account of, my demons came back to haunt me forever and ever….

Mike
God only know what a mess I have made and the blood that is still on my hands for killing this pretty thing of a woman. I don’t know what got my nerve to do such things, its crazy I know...


[Into the questioning room before the funeral months before]

Mike
Oh please god let me go! Please I beg of you…!

Officer
Why did you do it mike? That’s my question and I want some gotdamn answer from you NOW!

Mike
[Spits on officers face]
Who the hell are you to judge? I called my dealer for some stuff and he gladly came and I paid for it. Then I started getting real nasty with Olivia probably because she wouldn’t do something for me or whatever it was…..

Officer
[Shoves his face into mikes crying bleeding face]
That’s what you think when I was looking at the body of your long-term girlfriend i came across some disturbing things, and you were doped up enough to kill her with your child?! What kind of a monster are you anyways….

Mike
Hey man [stumbles] you don’t know who I am or what my business is, but you sure aren’t getting into my business…
[Officer Buts into the conversation]
Officer
Your business your own bloody BUSINESS!! That was your kid for Christ sake and you could care or give a damn less about what others are giving to you.

Mike
Why the hell would you care anyway?