what lies beneath

My actions are a result of hurting you
I don’t want to hurt you anymore
Even myself
I hate it when I do dumb stuff
I feel like a failure
For being such a fool
And I still keep lying
And telling you that I’ll be okay
But everything’s not
I know who this isn’t fair for the both of us
It’s tearing me apart
And deep down inside
I want to say
I’m sorry, but I feel like sorry just doesn’t cut it
No matter what I do
I want to protect you from my own demons
Cause the scars do show
They show how my life need’s help
Until you see what’s inside
What’s inside of me is, a broken girl
Just trying to live her life
Happy
And painless
But how happy can I make myself
When I all I want is for you to be okay
As I lie awake, here in this bed
The acid burns a hole in my stomach
Deep down I just hold myself and cry
Until this storm subsides